Totally getting side-tracked again. I feel like my brain is turning to mush. So I’m trying this “let’s study a few days in advance intensely” technique instead of mad-cramming all one night and crash, but I mean I still feel like crap & that the amount of work I put in won’t reflect in the grade I receive.
This is what I get for taking science & math nonstop for 3 years straight 😦 Besides some english courses & a guitar class.
And I know part of the reason why I am so upset is because I have a meeting with my pre-med advisor tomorrow. And I know he’s gonna say, your grades just don’t cut it for a MD school. That if there is even a chance, I should probably postpone applying until 2 years after my undergrad graduation. That a post-bac program is in order even though its uber expensive & is basically repeating my pre-req classes. That even then I’m not guaranteed into a decent medical school. That all the jobs I’ve held, volunteer hours I have done, people I’ve met & taught just really don’t add up to much because of a stupid number called my GPA.
But somewhere, deep deep deep down instead. Pass all my fear for failure & the hurt I’ve encountered from denial after denial here at this school, I believe I’m met to do something great in science.
Originally ripped from an old vlog post I made back in the summer:
Wish me luck for tomorrow. Happy midterms everyone.